Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts
Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts

09 March 2012

Into the Unknown

Say you're a teacher.

Say you're working with students.

Say you're a teacher for students and the class you're teaching is history.

Say that.

Assuming these are the premises, you may also assume the following: there is something specific you want to teach them. The class should have a curriculum, and given that it is history it probably has a specified topic and time frame. "The French Revolution, 1789-1799." "The Development of the Nuclear Bomb, 1939-1945." "Wars and Conflicts, 1900-today."

In addition, the specificness of which you presumably want to teach, is tied to the craft of your profession: the historian. Because it is a craft, a set of rules, certain points without which you will not be able to perform your work properly.

And then you have the Odd Bull (inside joke). The stray dog that breaks the rules, and plans to get away with it.

Granted, some do. Think Picasso.

But most don't.

And those who do, get away with it because they break the rules in a smart way. They break the right kind of rules.

The reason they can do that is that they know the rules. They know the craft. They have learned it, first, and then they derrive from it.

"Be precise!"

"Be specific!"

"Don't assume that the reader can follow you line of thought!"

"Never leave a quote hanging. Your interpretation of it, and your reasoning as to why it is important isn't obvious to the rest of us. If you cannot explain why the quote should be there, it shouldn't be there. If it doesn't express specifically something you cannot say just as well with your own words, you should say it with your own words."

I know the rules. I know the craft. At least I'm supposed to. What I know that I know, though, is this: I know that I don't follow the rules. Not now. Because I am not specific. I am not clear. You do not follow. My arguments are weak, my reasoning reasonless.

And the reason I can do this is not that I know the rules, but that I know that there are no rules. This is not my craft, after all; this is not a academic, history paper. This is a blog.

Say you're a teacher. Say you're working with students. Say your work as a teacher is making your head so full of analysis and rules and academic upholstery that you have no desire to make sense anymore. Say that.

22 December 2010

Um... er... ah...


Most of us here know each other - even if we are just ships that pass through blogosphere - and most of us are aspiring to be authors (or may even be authors already). So, having established that I'm amongst if not friends, then at least like-minded individuals, then I am fairly comfortable with admitting that some days (er, probably most days actually), I don't have a clue what I am doing. Being me, that's not really a surprise, and not even an insurmountable problem. But there is a problem nonetheless. What do you do when aside from the normal I-Don't-Know-What-The-Heck-I'm-Going-To-Do-So-I'll-Just-Wing-It approach, you also have a great big neon sign flashing in your brain that says STUMPED?

Depending what you are working on, this state of inactivity can cause anything between mild irritation and sheer panic. Unfortunately, I get this a lot, and because it is in my nature to panic, I end up getting really stressed. I've always been an 'up and down' person, but because I've been that way for as far back as I can remember, I never really thought about why I was this way. My recent diagnosis of episodic depression at least explains the why of it, but it doesn't really help me to get anything done.

Obviously not everyone will suffer the same problems that I do, but I'm betting that every single writer out there has periods of inactivity, or 'dry spells' as it were. So how do we counteract this? I know a few people who have strategies to cope, but they don't really work for me because a lot of the time it is lethargy that keeps me from writing. Add to that a predisposition to make things up as I go along, anything that sounds remotely like a plan is liable to send me running in the opposite direction anyway.

Take today's blog post. You may notice that it's just over four hours late going up (which I apologise for, by the way). It's not that I forgot about it; in fact, I was panicking about this week's 'Writing Wednesday' post about three seconds after I posted last week's 'Reading Monday' post (which I also panicked about for about a week prior to writing it, by the way). And the more I stress out and procrastinate, the less inclined I am to do anything about it.

It's hard, really hard. I honestly love writing, I really do, but some days it can feel like a chore, and when you are working on something that you probably won't get paid for (for those of us yet to be published, that is), the last thing you want is to feel that way. When you write, you should enjoy it, not least because you are likely to produce drivel if you don't have any enthusiasm.

I get stumped on just about everything. In fact, my dry spells are at least three times as long as my 'flowing' spells. *rolls eyes at self*  With my blog posts, I usually manage to come up with something - even though they tend to be rambles - and I think the only reason I am able to scrape a few paragraphs together is because I am scheduled for them. There is a deadline (even if I am a few hours late *shifty*). So coming from a writer who is regularly stumped, and dithers far too much for her own good, I have one very big piece of writing advice. You'll have heard it before, and you'll most likely hear it again, but that doesn't matter because it is such a strong piece of advice that it bears repeating.


Give Yourself A Deadline!!!

Yup, that's my advice. It really works. I've been dithering over editing last year's NaNo novel for, well, a year, and although I've given myself deadlines, they've always been the Finish Editing By Blah Blah If I Can, But Don't Worry If I Don't kind of deadlines. Even as I was saying the words (or typing them), a little gremlin in the back of my mind was tittering and rolling their eyes.

However, my blog posts for BB&B are scheduled, and if I miss them I let the whole group down. That's not an option. I can post a little late, or in sheer panic ask to swap a day, or maybe beg a few ideas, but I can't miss. I haven't blogged for a month on my own blog, yet I managed to blog every day of October for it. The reason? I had requests for each and every blog post for that particular month, and people were expecting to read my rambles on the topics they'd given me. Yup, accountability really shifts your butt. Not writing my own stuff, or not editing a half-decent novel, only lets me down, so I can procrastinate as much as I can. Can't really feel guilty when the only person my dithering affects is me, after all. But letting other people down is another thing altogether. So along with deadlines, I'd also suggest promising a few nearest and dearest that you'll finish whatever it is you are working on.

Deadlines and guilt trips. Works for me. (Erm, sometimes *shifty*).


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08 December 2010

Writing Wednesday: Frustrated and Stressed from Writer's Block


Image: Wikimedia Commons, Godward

Lately, I have had great difficulty in overcoming time management. It's been challenging because my schedule is so full. I'm a full-time high school teacher with three children (ranging in age from 7-16), a husband and a large extended family. When I get home at 5:00 pm, I am in Mommy-mode up until about 10:00 pm. My youngest is a struggling reader and writer. Reading comprehension, spelling and transferring her thoughts to paper are her greatest weakness. I work intensively with her to overcome this with some teaching strategies I use with my special education students. By the time my children are in bed, I am too exhausted to write.

Additionally, I have both a mom and grandmother who have suffered from strokes and help out taking care of them on the weekends. We are a very tight-knit family. Whenever someone is in trouble, we all pitch in to help one another out. Also, because my family is so large (22 great grandchildren, 20 grandchildren and four generations of Santanas presently alive) there seems to always be a birthday, wedding, poker party and various other engagements to attend.

Image: Wikimedia Commons, Renoir

Also, there is my career choice which involves lesson planning, grading (homework, class work, projects, exams), creating individualized education plans and the never-ending staff meetings. I often skip lunch so that the workload I take home isn't so overwhelming. Because I am a coordinator, I manage teacher's assistants and adapt class work to the present levels of performance for a handful of students with disabilities. And although it may sound like I am making excuses, I feel as though these aspects of my life take priority over my writing.

Consequently, being the problem solver that I am, I figured I should look at some websites (listed below). There are several suggestions that are similar in each website. They are:

1. Unplug the internet to lessen distractions.
2. Read blogs and other writing-related materials to get the "juices" flowing.
3. Brainstorm, outline and use graphic organizers to focus your thoughts and your writing.
4. Change the location of your usual writing space.
5. Exercise, go for a walk/run/jog.

While all of these are really good suggestions, they don't address time management. The Watery Tart has made bath time a priority and succeeds in getting her writing done. The problem with this for me is that my 7-year-old will either stand outside the door and carry on conversations or she'll knock incessantly until she gets a response. I'm often frustrated, confused as to how to manage the writing, and very often upset with myself because I haven't so far. I don't know if the other Burrowers have solved the issue of time management (your suggestions are more than welcome).

Image: Wikimedia Commons

What are some ways that you, as a writer, have overcome the issue of "not enough time in the day?" I would really appreciate any help possible.



Here are the sites I found to be very informative:

http://thefuturebuzz.com/2008/12/03/how-to-overcome-writers-block/


http://www.huffingtonpost.com/hillary-rettig/how-to-overcome-writers-b_b_739536.html


http://leo.stcloudstate.edu/acadwrite/block.html


http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/1495637/how_to_overcome_writers_block.html